that time again already. the end of the month somehow creeps up on me so fast... i cannot believe it's already october. september flew by. i feel like i say that every month... do i?
to be honest, i can barely even remember what we did this month, other than take a trip out to grand junction. that, and buy room decore for the little man's room and all new furniture for beth's room, so that we could take the baby furniture from her room and put it in his room. it's is all painted and ready for furniture and the decor - i'm trying to get it done before i hit 7 months... before i hit uncomfortable and unwilling. well, less-willing. :) and actually, i am super excited for both of their rooms. it will be fun to make beth's room a "big girl" room with a toddler bed and furniture that allows for toy storage and more of a place for her to play. and his room is going to be awesome. i can't wait for the reveal, which will come to all of you as soon as i get it done.
it's kind of weird making this whole transition. maybe a mental thing... beth really isn't a baby anymore, and crazy to think that we're going to have a new one soon. that we're going to be starting all over with another little person. (a humanoid, as hank likes to call them. just teeny tiny human beings, just arrived to earth that have no idea what they're in store for. and yet, we've been entrusted with another... yikes.) so you know, i guess this post is appropriate for the september 3x12 as i really began to notice - and let it settle in - that beth is turning into a little girl. she has so much fun personality, loves to tease and play, loves to talk and sing, and the communication line between us has... i don't know how to explain it... ultra opened up lately. i can say so much more to her and she totally gets it. it's like, the coolest thing. i don't have to act everything out, or say it a hundred times anymore. i can just say things once and she responds, and does, and obeys (mostly), and it's amazing. almost a relief in a way. and yet so fun. because we can talk to each other now and that's what makes it so rad. we can talk to each other and i love it.
so yes, it's weird to think that we'll be starting all of that over. don't get me wrong, i'm stoked and all. i think that innately it seems weird that we've made all this progress with beth and now... back to the beginning. back to sqaure one. only with someone else who is going to be totally different. will i know how to do it differently? i barely knew what to do with the first one! it's a little nerve-racking, no? ...anyone? ...anyone?
something that someone said to me last week about it all hit me and has stuck with me since. they said that since beth will only be 22 months when the little man comes, she will quickly forget when she had us all to herself and for the rest of her life never remember not having a little brother around. at first, i both liked this and didn't like this. our time together has been so special! and it's the only 22 months ever in her whole life that she's going to have that! it was just us and it was so good! but then i thought, you know what? that's why we wanted them so close together - so that they would be close and always be a major part of each other's lives, and always know that the other was there. that's the way we wanted it. i've been really nervous about how she's going to take him and handle not getting 100% of our attention. but i think it will be okay. it might take some time, but i think it will all work out. just the way we wanted it...
pictures of both of the rooms to come soon. hopefully within a month. if we're brave enough to put beth in her toddler bed that early... eek!
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