well, she is learning to adjust like the rest of us. i wonder if without her knowing it, it's been the hardest for her. which makes it hard for me. because i still want her to feel special and know that i love her just as much, even though now there's a new kid in town who's stolen another part of my heart.
she's changed a little bit in the last couple of weeks - there is a lot more whining, a lot less listening, definitely some tantrum throwing and suddenly going to bed is like asking her to throw her favorite toy into the mouth of an enormous volcano - she just isn't having it. i'm not sure how much of that is because of hyde and how much of it is just her being two. probably a little bit of both.
she loves hyde and always wants to hold him and play with him. she likes to point out that he has eyes and poke at them or grab his hands and make him dance. innocent and fun, but the poor kid hates it.
so we're still working to find a balance - i try to still spend good quality time with her and praise her when she does good things. but i also find that i'm becoming harder on her when she doesn't. i'm not sure if it's because i'm tired and my patience is thin, or if it's just the natural progression of raising a kid - you discipline more as they act out more. i struggle with this. this has been the hardest part for me.
she is such a good girl. and becoming so dang smart it's unreal. so it kind of sucks to not feel like i have that really good, obedient girl all the time. because i don't. it's just different now. and i know it's just a phase and it will all work itself out. but right now i feel like we're in the thick of it.
sigh....
i just miss her i guess. i miss that Q time with her where we'd laugh and play with zero tears. we still have time together now, i mean, the little man still sleeps a billion hours a day. but she's changed and growing and the tears and struggles come a lot more often. we are all working through it, socks on hands and all...
we found her like this when we checked on her before we went to bed. hilarious, right? and not the first time either...
some pictures of beth and i having a family room picnic the weekend before hyde came:
ps: i'm all for advice right now... give me the best you got. how do i chill out and just roll with it better? am i tripping out over nothing? am i just the crazy hormone lady? anyone?... anyone?
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look at all these good photos (i had a little catching up to do). and i LOVE the socks on the hands, that is so dang cute. just like when we go in to check on our little guy at night and he's laying there in his diaper only. what else do they have to do before they nod off to sleep? think about what they need to do tomorrow?
what kind of advice are you looking for, girl? the fact is, everything has changed forever! the good old days of playing with a perfectly obedient 1-year-old on the floor without any other distractions and nothing else to worry about are over! it only gets harder! she is getting older, she is almost 2, she is going to try your patience more and more and more, and on top of it you have another little one to worry about! in your "story" i couldn't even figure out what it was you're tripping out about. it's your new life! accept the fact that it's never going to be as easy as it was in the past, ever again! (is that positive? sorry it's true). but it's still great, because hey we're moms (i.e. superwomen). pat yourself on the back much more often, chalk up your emotions to hormones (which is very valid right now), pull out your discipline books (i've got a whole library) and don't forget to keep wallowing in the scent of your sweet little new baby. enjoy, linds! love ya!!!
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